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Someone was googling Corey Feldman and I think this time they were actually looking for me, or at least my Facebook page. I’m relatively hard to Google due to the a certain 80’s actor with whom I share a name. But I do have a big enough online presence that with certain key bits of information I’m actually pretty easy to find. Simply add DC (as in Washington) to a Corey Feldman search string e.g. “Corey Feldman DC” and my Facebook page is top of the list. Add my middle initial, even with out the DC – “Corey J Feldman” and you get my little website as the top hit, at least at the time of writing this post. Anyway, I was looking though my logs the other night and I found a google referral from the search string “Corey J Feldman DC Facebook”.

Clearly whoever was looking for my FB page knew enough about me to add my middle initial and hometown, yet they were not already a Facebook “Friend”. This eliminates a large percentage of people I know, personally at any rate. I don’t have any current coworkers, not for any particular reason, there are no embarrassing photos or status updates, I guess being in HR I tend error on the side of maintaining professional boundaries. I suppose it could be a Twitter “follower”, but I have not exactly been particularly active as of late. I’m also surprised that they googled it versus searched from within Facebook, although it is possible they don’t have a Facebook profile – I do actually know a couple people not on FB.

I am not sure why this caught my interest other than I find it fascinating and surprising when anyone actually looks for me. Though I am the consummate Leo (for the record I do not put any stock in Astrology, just using it here as a shortcut description of my personality) and I am drawn to center stage, I’m not always conformable being there. Yet I keep tweeting, blogging and facebooking and I occasionally read my site logs to see what my visitors are reading and what brought them here. So maybe I doth protest to much, or maybe like everyone else I am slightly messy and have conflicting personalty traits.

Are you ever surprised to find out someone has googled you? Or if you have a small/smallish blog, do you look at your site stats.

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I am not ready for this. Melissa, she is ready. Josh, he is ready. I am sure even Elijah is ready for the more one on one time he will get with Mommy once Josh starts preschool (though Eli obviously has no idea). I am not ready, not even close. I know I fall slightly on the overprotective side of the parenting fence, but that is really only part of the issue. Sure I have thought about randomly swinging by the school to make sure the doors are locked. And I hate that we live in a world were a synagogue/preschool feels the need to line the border of the property with “decorative” boulders. But much of my trepidation isn’t really about security. It is a good school, we checked it out thoroughly and have many neighbors/friends with kids there. What I think really bothers me most is just how fast time is moving.

I decided to not work through lunch today. I took some time to read some blogs and write this post. One of the blogs I read belongs to my friend Jodi. Her current (at least at the time of this draft – she is a far more prolific writer then I) blog post has a picture of her little boy when he was an infant. Her next post down shows him just the other day. The difference was startlingly. I haven’t asked her, but I would be shocked if she said that time has done anything but flown by. After I read her post, I browsed though some of my favorite pictures of the kids on my iPhone. I can’t believe how much Josh has changed over the course of his 2 1/2 years and Elijah over his 7 months. Every day I come home from work to find one or both of them have learned some new thing or have done something for the very first time.

I enjoy my job; I work for a good company and the reality is I can’t be there the way I would like. But I do feel like a missing so much. It makes these milestones bittersweet, but I supposed that is the taste of life.

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I would like to say happy mothers day to my beautiful wife Melissa and tell the world how lucky Joshua and I are to have her.

I would also like to wish a happy mothers day to all the wonderful mothers in my life. 

My good friend Deanna Hoak, shares her views on motherhood.  Deanna is a talented copyeditor and mother, please check out her post and site.