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Someone was googling Corey Feldman

Tue, 03 Nov 2009 18:35:06 GMT

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Someone was googling Corey Feldman and I think this time they were actually looking for me, or at least my Facebook page. I’m relatively hard to Google due to the a certain 80’s actor with whom I share a name. But I do have a big enough online presence that with certain key bits of information I’m actually pretty easy to find. Simply add DC (as in Washington) to a Corey Feldman search string e.g. “Corey Feldman DC” and my Facebook page is top of the list. Add my middle initial, even with out the DC – “Corey J Feldman” and you get my little website as the top hit, at least at the time of writing this post. Anyway, I was looking though my logs the other night and I found a google referral from the search string “Corey J Feldman DC Facebook”.

Clearly whoever was looking for my FB page knew enough about me to add my middle initial and hometown, yet they were not already a Facebook “Friend”. This eliminates a large percentage of people I know, personally at any rate. I don’t have any current coworkers, not for any particular reason, there are no embarrassing photos or status updates, I guess being in HR I tend error on the side of maintaining professional boundaries. I suppose it could be a Twitter “follower”, but I have not exactly been particularly active as of late. I’m also surprised that they googled it versus searched from within Facebook, although it is possible they don’t have a Facebook profile – I do actually know a couple people not on FB.

I am not sure why this caught my interest other than I find it fascinating and surprising when anyone actually looks for me. Though I am the consummate Leo (for the record I do not put any stock in Astrology, just using it here as a shortcut description of my personality) and I am drawn to center stage, I’m not always conformable being there. Yet I keep tweeting, blogging and facebooking and I occasionally read my site logs to see what my visitors are reading and what brought them here. So maybe I doth protest to much, or maybe like everyone else I am slightly messy and have conflicting personalty traits.

Are you ever surprised to find out someone has googled you? Or if you have a small/smallish blog, do you look at your site stats.

This morning is made of awesome

Fri, 30 Oct 2009 11:32:53 GMT

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I did not have a good night sleep. Lots of tossing, turning and coughing(stupid chest cold). I finally gave up at 5:30. I flicked through email and facebook on my iPhone but decided if I was up I’d might as well get in a workout. With the chest cold I wasn’t up for a run but figured I would do some strength training in the basement. As I mentioned, I had my iPhone which apparently in an otherwise dark room reflects nicely off the bedroom door, providing the illusion that it is open. Yes, I walked into the door, which was actually partially open, slamming it closed and knocking me on my backside. The slamming door woke up Melissa and Joshua. I tried to convince Joshua that it wasn’t morning yet. He was not convinced and was loud enough in his disagreement to wake up Elijah. Both kids are up and clearly still tired. Of course I have to go to work, so I won’t be the one dealing with the results of my klutziness. Sorry Honey!

Morning Conversation

Thu, 22 Oct 2009 11:34:12 GMT

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Josh – Who is that stading on the moon (looking at a picture above my desk)
Me – Edwin Aldrin
Josh- How did they get there
Me- A rocket ship
Josh – OH
Josh- Can I go to the moon
Me- Maybe some day

Josh – Where Megan lives ( A friend of Melissa who visited last weekend)
Me – Vermont
Josh -How did she get here
Me – An Airplane and a taxi
Josh – No Just a taxi
Me – Both. She took a Airplane to DC and a Taxi to our house
Josh – OH

Who the hell is Winifred Feldman and why is she stalking me.

Wed, 21 Oct 2009 19:30:17 GMT

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Not too long after I bought my first Condo I started getting calls for a Winifred Feldman. I would politely explain that my last name is Feldman, but I am not related to nor do I know anyone by the name of Winifred. I have moved twice since then and it would seem she is still following me. Today I was not so polite when someone called my cell phone for the umpteenth time. I reminder her that I was pretty sure I spoke to her last week – same number and same voice, and that is is not OK that she keeps calling my cell phone. Take me off your list. I am not not now nor have I ever been a Winifred, an 80’s actor and I do not wear my sun glasses at night, so I can, so I can… Vent/Rant Over.

Lunch time quick post

Wed, 21 Oct 2009 16:10:40 GMT

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Elijah’s first shopping cart ride.

Think but this, and all is mended:That you have but slumbered here,While these visions did appear

Mon, 16 Oct 2006 22:23:20 GMT

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This morning I had one of THOSE dreams. “THOSE dreams” refer to a general class of dreams that I find particularly disturbing. Today’s subset of “THOSE dreams” I like to think of as a little, HAHA I am going to F with your entire morning, from my subconscious. The Alarm goes off; you hop out of bed, scoop the cat littler, drink some coffee, hop in the shower and perform all kinds of mundane morning rituals designed to get your day started. The screwy thing is you’re not really awake. No bizarre transitions, dream logic, or any other oddity to shake you into lucidity. Sometimes the cycle repeats several times, and that is a really BIG FU from U. It is 12pm and a little part of me can’t help but wonder if I am still asleep.

Think but this, and all is mended:That you have but slumbered here,While these visions did appear

Tue, 26 Sep 2006 16:09:47 GMT

Fri, 22 Sep 2006 00:56:53 GMT

I just read through some of my old entries and once again I came face to face with my own inadequacies. I was astounded by the number of typos and half expressed thoughts. Some of it is the nature of the beast, a rushed entry here and there with only a quick spell check and review. I have a fairly writing intensive job. On a routine basis I manage to put together Contracts, offer letters, counselings, policies and more, without looking like a compete moron. On a basic level I have the ability to string a few words together in a comprehendible and usually grammatically correct fashion. But it does not come naturally. I am not sure if it stems from some buried masochistic tendency, but I find it more then a little ironic that my ultimate career goal is inextricably tied to one of my greatest personal challenges. I do believe we are put on this planet to learn and grow, so maybe it will be daunting and challenging, but not so ironic after all. I have recently had the opportunity to learn a little bit from a fascinating Rabbi. One of his favorite sayings is “we are here to earn our bread.” The concept is a bit deeper then I am about to express but… if G-d were to hand you everything, how does it have any value. Things are best appreciated if earned. If I ever do manage to rise above my personnel challenges and succeed in a writing career, it won’t come easy; it may not come at all, but life, dear Joshua, is about finding your limits and growing beyond them.

Thu, 21 Sep 2006 00:54:37 GMT

I just realized that my picture is from a year ago. Actually, it will be a year on Sunday, my first wedding anniversary. It has been an amazing year, but more on that topic soon… Anyway, I have gone sans facial hair for a good 6 months. I guess I need to either grow it back or update my photo. My mom hated the Gotee, every time she saw me, she gave me the typical mom comment, “you have such a pretty face, why do you want to hide it.” I always thought it made me look more distinguished, a little older, a little more mature… When I realized I was a little older and maybe ever a little more mature, I shaved it off, funny how that works.

A different world

Thu, 21 Sep 2006 00:26:21 GMT

One theory in quantum mechanics dictates that there are many worlds or Universes out there, It is colloquially referred to as “many worlds theory.” It is the premise of much speculative fiction. I believe in my heart of hearts, if there is some alternative reality out there; one in which the Bush Family, had no money and political connections, the only button George W. Bush would be able to push would turn on the blue light special. I honestly believe the world would be a safer and happier place.

UUUGGGGGGGGGG

Mon, 18 Sep 2006 19:46:31 GMT

I almost never mention work, but 12 -16 hour days for 2 months has kicked my backside. I haven’t posted, haven't written, I have barely ever seen my wife UGGGGG

AC

Thu, 20 Jul 2006 16:30:35 GMT

AC has been restored. What the heck did people do before the days of AC!

Astrology

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 14:14:52 GMT

My wife is quite the fan of astrology. I have personally never been a big believer. I accept that the universe contains a myriad of interconnections that exist outside humanities current ability to understand, but there are too many things about astrology that simply don’t make sense e.g. identical twins that end up have such completely different lives. I honestly think a lot of it is hooey; but some times I wonder if there aren’t certain ebbs and flows of universal forces that can be intimated and predicted due to their cyclical nature, spuriously connected, yet predictable none the less. If there is one thing I took from all of those statistics and experimental design classes, events can be predictive without being causal in nature. Did the sages long ago notice patters that they were able to tie to other cyclical events, an entire mythos built on a real ebb and flow of universal forces? From what Melissa tells me, Mercury was retro grade yesterday, which apparently is bad for electronic and mechanical devices, additionally there was some alignment that made this “force” even more destructive. Anyway, yesterday was loads of fun. The ceiling fan in our living room crashed to the ground; thankfully neither Melissa nor our cats had been underneath it when it fell. I think we will be picking up glass shards for the next year. Oh, did I mention that our air conditioning broke yesterday as well? Melissa ended up having to sleep at her mom’s. I probably should have gone as well, considering I only managed about three hour of sleep, but at the time is seemed more of a hassle then a convenience. Our AC person isn’t coming until tomorrow morning, so I am not sure what we will do tonight… Were the two major mechanical failures simply a coincidence? I just don’t know Horatio.

Fri, 14 Jul 2006 13:46:49 GMT

I am sitting on a balcony in Key West, over looking the Gulf of Mexico, not too far from Ernest Hemmingway’s home. I am not really awake enough to want to write, however I am slipping into vacation mode easier then I would have expected. I only have a slight urge to log in and check my work email, and so far I have resisted.

OMG the quiet, well almost.

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 16:09:43 GMT

Yesterday the power was out for several hours, a whole 40 minutes of it we were actually home, oh the horror!

Where was the buzz? There was no whine of computer fans, no hum of countless electronic devices and major appliances, the exceedingly shoddy construction of our overpriced and well located condo revealed in the absence of white noise. The whirr of the modern world replaced by the drone of birds, cricket, dogs and the echoes of inanely trite conversations. Our cats were visibly disturbed by the missing sounds of modern comfort/enslavement and I was practically manic with anxiety.

I am more then a little saddened by my inability to appreciate the momentary freedom from technobuzz. That I was actually disturbed by the conscious perception of what lies just below the blanket of white noise. I did not spend the time in quiet contemplation, or even reading (one of my favorite activities) in our extremely well lit, sun filled home. Instead I paced back and fourth constantly checking my lifeline to the modern world, a pocketpc phone with high speed internet and push email. Now I sit in my office, trying to eat my lunch while working, The phone is ringing, the computer is beeping, the air purifier is purifying, the fax is faxing, down the hall I can hear the recruiters, well, recruiting.

My Kingdom for a cricket!

Fri, 30 Jun 2006 01:36:01 GMT

Life and work have been crazy and I have been completely absent from LJ both reading and posting. All attempts towards balance and creative expression have been met with a newtonian retort. My unconscious mind however, is less easily thwarted, I have had the repeated and somewhat eerie experience of dreaming snippets from my characters lives. I can only describe them as snippets. They were not stories or even related to any lines, but they have given me some interesting perspective.

Wed, 17 May 2006 02:07:10 GMT

I will never be great writer. Someday, with enough practice and patience, I hope to be a good writer, but I have no illusions of a potentiality for greatness. This isn't a question of my ability to be commercially successful, we have all seen great books flop, and mediocrity give rise to wealth and fame. This is about my comfort with my own writing. I keep getting stalled on this project or that, and I continue to allow my aspirations to be drowned in a sea of procrastination. I know this is directly related to my frustration with myself and the current state of my prose. I have been so unwilling to allow myself to fail, that I haven't been allowing myself to try. I think that is part of the reason I blog, confront the fear to weaken its hold...

Gotta Love the NSA

Fri, 12 May 2006 18:40:38 GMT

Quid custodiet ipsos custodes?

Mon, 01 May 2006 14:58:39 GMT

Writing -

I managed to eek out few words this weekend. The quality and value of those words have yet to be determined.

Reading -

On Jason Erik Lundberg recommendation I read Magic Lessonsby Justine Larbalestier. Great book. Very easy read and highly entertaining. The writing level is definitely geared to YA, but it has some interesting concepts and themes that should appeal to a wide range of audiences. The book takes place in Australia and New York. She does a fairly good job switching between the point of view and perspective of the three main teenagers involved. The Australian pop culture dictionary in the back of book might seem a little gimmicky to some, but I thought it was an interesting window into another culture and certainly saved me some Google time.

On Multiple recommendations I also got about ½ way through Hall Duncan’s Vellum. It is really a fantastic book. If you have any sort of interest in Religion, Archeology, Anthropology, Mythology and or Philosophy, it is a must read. I will give a more in-depth review after I finish it

Life -

Melissa and I had Shabbat dinner at an Orthodox Rabbi's house Friday night. Rabbi Benanou teaches the Kabbalah class I take on Wednesday nights. It was an eclectic group of people and truly fascinating conversations on Religion, Philosophy and Politics. I also had the opportunity to learn some customs in Judaism that I was completely ignorant about.

Sunday, Melissa and I went to a discussion and luncheon sponsored by The Crohn's and Colitis Foundation of America. CCFA is a wonderful organization that is dedicated to finding a cure and provides support and education for Crohns, Colitus, and other Inflammatory Bowel Diseases. I was disheartened to discover how many people were afraid to take part in genetic testing for fear that their genetic information will be used against them, or their children, by Employers and Insurance companies. It was incredibly disturbing to hear that even though 1053, the Genetic Information Nondiscrimination Act, passed the Senate with a nearly unanimous vote in 2003, and that there is well more then the 50% support in congress required for ratification. Speaker Dennis Hastert (Republican) has yet to allow its introduction. The Law would provide protection from employers and insurance companies. You could not be denied a job, promotion, and or health insurance because something in your genetic code. I urge you to contact your congressman and express your outrage and horror that what should be a fundamental protection has yet to be enacted.

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 11:19:56 GMT

I have done a little bit a writing over the last couple of weeks. Not enough, but some. I must find a way to refocus. This is the opposite of a few weeks ago when I was blocked and had nothing. Lately I have been flooded with ideas with no time to pursue them. And the few times I have been able to sit down and do some writing, I have been so overwhelmed with the deluge of ideas, that I haven't been able to anchor myself to one story or starting place. I woke up early this morning, came down stairs to do a little work and just stared at my computer. This was not JUST my coffee is brewing and I am not conscious yet morning fog. There was so much I wanted to write, and I couldn't figure out where to start.

The Ego is dead, long live the EGO

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 16:22:45 GMT

I wonder at what stage in my evolution will I actually internalize the concept that the whole world does in fact NOT have to agree with everything I say. I completely grasp it intellectually, but I have always had a difficult time accepting it on a base level. While I have gotten far better over the years of repressing my natural tendency to want to yell something along the lines of: "Are you stupid! How are you not understanding what I am saying!" There is still a good chunk of ego that just doesn't get it. I have no problem grasping my own inherently flawed nature. I get that I am just as colored by my world view as every other sentient being on this planet. But there is still this primordial ego core that believes my perceptions must be superior to anyone else's!

Passover

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 15:21:15 GMT

Tonight begins Passover. For those non tribe members out there, Passover is the celebration of the Jewish exodus from Egypt. You know… Charlton Hesston as Moses, the funky flat bread, plagues, parting of the Red Sea (Historically, it is more likely that it was the Sea of Reeds and the Egyptian chariots sunk in the muck while travelers on foot were able to cross), 10 commandments (and the rest of the Torah), and of course the Burning Bush. Traditionally in Israel the festival is a 7 day event, 8 if you are outside of Israel and observant. Where I grew up, most us celebrated the first 2 nights and in later years only the first night. Passover to me has always represented two ideas. The first being freedom. Recognizing the importance of our own and attempting to empathize with people who are not so fortunate. The second aspect of Passover that has continually struck a cord in me is Education. It is a story of the education of the Jewish People, Knowledge of freedom and the Torah (The framework of the relationship between man and G-d.) The Seder further shows the importance of education; it is designed around children asking questions and learning about Judaism.

Typo city

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 01:44:44 GMT

I just read my live journal Bio for the first time since I posted it. Not rereading it for so long was a bad move for a Dyslexic. I was appalled by the shear volume of typos and grammatical errors in such a short passage. I fixed a bunch, but I am sure I will go back in later and find more. It really brought home for me the reason why writers need to give themselves some time between edits. At least for me, when what I want to say is in my head, it is hard to see the individual words. Time really helps give whatever I am working on fresh perspective. That being said, it was a very frightening reminder of the challenges ahead. I know in my heart I am a story teller. I just have to find a way to get it on paper.

CoreyJF website down

Mon, 10 Apr 2006 17:26:33 GMT

Not that I have hordes of visitors but apparently my website is down. I have been using the open source Content Management System Joomla (formally Mambo) and something broke. There seems to be a disconnect between Joomla and the mysql database. I was never really happy with the website, so I might as well take this opportunity to redesign it from scratch. I don't exactly have mad web developer skills, but I can usually figure things out with Google and a little time.

post #2 of the day

Thu, 06 Apr 2006 01:15:46 GMT

I just read Simon R. Green's "Sharper Than A Serpent's Tooth : A Novel of the Nightside". I was at the bookstore and it was on a display shelf. I hadn't read the rest of the series and I normally hate reading out of order. But... pretty girl on the cover, $7 and a Shakespeare reference to boot; I'm sold. It was complete crap, but so thoroughly enjoyable that I must go back and read the series from the beginning.

No, that was not the book my darling wife picked up for me. She bought me "The Jesus Paper" by Michael Baigent. Yes, that is the co-author of "Holy Blood, Holy Grail" who is suing Dan Brown's publisher for stealing his conspiracy theory. Here is a conspiracy for you: A blockbuster movie is due to be released, There is a new book laying in wait and here comes a lawsuit orchestrated by Merovingian line. This lawsuit is not to drive book sales for an author who has already seen an exponential increase in sales since his historical theories were used in the context of fiction. But in actuality is a ruse to help spread disinformation. I am not sure where I heard that theory, but I think it is on the internet somewhere. So, why support someone who I personally think is an opportunistic, litigious, expletive deleted? I am nut for historical Jesus. Come Easter I am glued to the history channel! You may wonder why a card carrying member of the tribe is into historical Jesus, I know my wife does. I am a surprisingly spiritual person. I am fascinated with religion and mythology in all its many forms. I am especially interested in the intersections. The places were fact, fantasy and faith come together to form the foundation of a cultures world view (please excuse the alliteration). Christianity, being one for the most influential religions the world has ever know, is absolutely intriguing. I have also always marveled at Christianity's ability to absorb, integrate and disseminate the mythos of local populations.